Damn it!!

haiz...
my monday owiz vv hard to paz thru...
d 1 minute in d clock = 1 hour in my life...
sighxx~
zi xin off tday...
min nt here tday...
ntg to b fun n play tday...
av hour..av min..av second
oso gonna face to d "pao green sky"
my gosh...
y my life on monday sooooooooooo BITTER??!!

luckily...
thr r "sumbody" help me to change sos~
haha~
no nid change d sos alone...
atleast stil gt "expensive ppl" help me...
lolxx~

zi xin~
hw is ur date tday??
wf ur boy boy~
avthg run smooth?
hope so~

oiii~~
dun 4get cum bec pui me tmr arrr...
owiz dum dei me...
u rili heartless 1 err...
dun 1 chooooy u ady...
hng~

jz fly~~

Love in your eyes

Sitting silent by my side

Going on Holding hand

Walking through the nights

Hold me up Hold me tight

Lift me up to touch the sky

Teaching me to love with heart

Helping me open my mind

I can fly

I'm proud that I can fly

To give the best of mine

Till the end of the time

Believe me I can fly

I'm proud that I can fly

To give the best of mine

The heaven in the sky

Stars in the sky

Wishing once upon a time

Give me love

Make me smile

Till the end of life

Can't you believe that you light up my way

No matter how that ease my path

I'll never lose my faith.

Nothing can stop me

Spread my wings so wide

微笑。。。

还没做工之前
也不知何谓幸福
做工之后
就发觉以前的我
生在福中不知福

还没做工之前
我是
一个懵懂的女孩
一个不知天高地厚的小女孩
一个单纯到还没跳出井外的青蛙公主
做工之后
我是
一个知道赚钱的幸苦的小女孩
我不再是
以前那个伸手将军了

还没做工之前
我觉得微笑也只不过是用来装设脸的东西
从来没有想过微笑的重要性
以为不笑可以变得有型些
事实上，不是这样的
原来微笑比不笑可以来得更有型，更可爱，
我发觉
当一个微笑的脸展现在我面前
我的心也会好像彩虹般，七彩缤纷~
一个微笑足足可以点亮整个世界~
原来一个淡淡的微笑，也可以改变一切
好！！
从此我爱上微笑~~~

jusco.ing wif jo ann

jz came bec from jusco...
hehe~
so happy tday...
i go jj wif jo ann tday...
jz 2 of us lea...
d world tat rili belongs to me n jo ann..
hehe~
mayb sum of them wil said tat 2 person shopping wil b boring...
but i dun tink so...
i feel quite enjoy...
i totally can enjoy every min n every seconds during shopping tday...
i lk it~
hmmm~
i tink jo ann stil cnt put down her ex till nw...
they break wif a unique reason...
hmmm...
i duno y...
tat fella ask sumbody to ply jo ann's feeling...
wat d hell...
jz f**k off la...
shame on u...
ok...dun talk abt tat...
i tink jo ann n me...
is in d same group...
i mean jo ann n me is d same kind of person...
bcz...those ppl treat us wif a same way...
feel sad abt tat...
nvm...
avthg wil hv d own way to end...

jo ann n me watch movie together...
v watch 2 movies in a same day...
1 is 2012...
another 1 is A Christmas Carol...

tiz ACC rili suckz...
hmmm...
same as ACC in d skul...
i dislike it...
almost sienxx sei me...


wow...
tiz movie rili exciting n interesting...
i laugh. i cry. i angry. i happy. i sket. i hate. i hope. i.......
during tiz movie...
almost 3 hours i sit in d cinema during tiz movie...
sit till my butt oso pain pain errr...

anyway..
i lk tiz movie but i dun hope it is rili end of d world during 2012...

Reasons:
1. i dun 1 to die so faz...
2. i hv no enuf money to buy ticket 2 save my own life...
3. i dun 1 to lost anybody in my life...
4. n many many more...


after watching tiz 2 movies...
jo ann n me go popular book fair to find smtg to read during holidays..
hehe~~

tiz is wat i buy 4 myself as a holiday present...
hope it will attract me...
lolxx~
7smtg...
my mum cal me n say tat it is time to bec nw...
huhuhu~
y d time paz so faz tday??
nt enuf la plz~
nvm ler...
i tink stil gt chance geh~

hope jo ann wil find her true luv asap 2 recover her sadness in d heart...

gud morning

actually...ntg to say abt tday...
jz start my new day...
n it is tuesday...
around 12noon...
i m jz wake up...
i feel so tired...
i sket tat i wil die bcz of tiredness...
i read d newspaper jz nw...
it is abt....toooooooooooo tired can cause mati!!
walao....
i m soooooo sket tat i m d nex 1 hu die cz by tired...
act...
i m nt sket to die...
jz bcz i m stil hv many thg to do...
so i dun1 to die so faz...

anyway...
god wil bless me~

kemalangan lagi

wat d.....
i pour d 2 glasses of chinese tea agn...
in d condition of ACCIDENTLY
it is really true...okay???
huhuhu~~
y m i so stupid dee??
yay...
i noe ady...
i m nt stupid....i m jz dun lk to use my brain!!
ish~
luckily tiz time nt in front of customers...
if nt....
thr r so many FISH waiting for me...

"handsome"

hmmm...
smtg hitz in d place i work recently...
it is...
min n khong owiz say tat d fella "handsome"
wat kind of hell is tiz..?
ish~~
if he "handsome"...
den i tink i m miss world ady lorh...
if he "handsome"...
atleast let me noe tat all d boys on d world r dead...
if nt...shut up!!
if he "handsome"
pork chop oso can b cinderella's husband jor la...

correct or nt??
wat i said~
lolxx~

失败!!

本来打算要和“欣”和“悯”一起去看2012那部戏的
那个欣又好像不爹不掉酱
结果这个计划就失败了咯~
我真的真的好想看这部戏啊
谁可以陪我去看??
自从那个计划失败以后
我就一个人在parade吃steamboat和走来走去
毫无方向感
由于没有了方向感
久而久之就会好像titanic酱沉入海底
今天的我花了不少钱
有一点点心痛的感觉
仿佛心在流血
~

smtg special tday

as usual~
working agn from 3pm-12midnite...
smtg special 4 tday is...
i saw a leng zai tday...
bt d leng zai's frenzz rili make me vomit...
his fren's hair is RED + YELLOW in colour...
wasai...
hak sei me...
feel so emo le his frenzz..
abt 10smtg...
d leng zai wanna go toilet...
bt he duno whr is d toilet....
gam ngam...
i was standing near him...
so...he ask me...
wow...
his voice rili MERDU...
lolxx~
sudden...i feel i m FLOWER STICK rite nw...
hahaxx~
i wil rmb...
they r sitting in table 61...
n they ordered...
=honeydew juice
=watermelon
=1/2 dozen garlic butter bread
=fried ginger beef koy teow
=drumstick rice
=soya bean
=manggo pudding
tiz is wat they eat..

ok...i tink i gotta stop tiz topic nw...
if nt...
ppl wil tink tat i m abnormal...
hohoho~

without her

tday is d 2nd working day without zi xin...
feel bored...
seems lk no bee flying around me...
n d situation is silence~
hmmm...
i muz find out a way to biasakan myself...
hohoho~
2days to go without zi xin...
i MUZ biasakan myself a.s.a.p!!
so tat i wont in d condition silence!
hw abt zi xin??
hw abt her softball competition?
r she ok?
at here...
wish her gud luck ler...
zi xin~
god bless u..

laz day in d skul...

i received a msg from toon toon laz nite in condition MONG CHA CHA
in a situation half asleep half awake...
d msg cum...
toon toon ask me to accompany her to skul tmr...
walao...
i tot i m dreaming tim...
den i faz faz open my eyes n c my fon...
hu noe..?
dream rili cum true...
lolxx~
den i tink n tink n tink...
tmr sure many ppl absent d...
so...haiz...nvm la...
bcz of her...
i korban my sleep time ler...
tiz is d oni way to solve d prob...
if nt....
toon toon sure vv lonely d...
so...
i reply her n say i wil go to skul tmr n i cont. my sleep...

quite malang tday...
prefect is checking fingers nails...
wat d hell...
i keep my fing nails til so long...
nw...
those stupid prefects ask me 2 cut wor...
sobxx~
so sad errr...
hmmm...
jz forget abt it ler...
prefects jz hving their duty...
nt their false...
so...i wont angry them...
but hor...
rili rili rili vv vv vv sad ar me....
feel tat wanna cry gam....
ish~~

tot tat i can c u tday..."laz time to c u"
bt...it wil jz happen in my dreams
i misund...
i tot tat u hv ur spm tday...
haiz~

sad...i miss my idol n all my seniors~

sum of my classmate din cum to skul at all after d final exam....
i miss them sooooooooo much...
i heard 1 of my teachers said tat...
4s2 is d worst class(attendance)
abt 11 or 12 ppl cum to skul avday...
holidays is around d corner...
bt i m nt rili wan d holidays nw...
i feel so sad...
i cnt c my idol starting nex year ler...
i duno hw 2 paz thru d day without motto...
summore...
i miss all my seniors...
hmmm...
tmr is d laz day...
i tink it wil b 10X teruk abt d attendance...
i m tinking abt smtg rite nw...
i duno wana go skul tmr o nt??
bcz it wil b a super boring day...
i m stil wondering..........

朋友和朋友之间。。？

是不是朋友和朋友之间
认识得越久，了解得越深
就会产生一种厌倦的感觉？
难道不能做一辈子的朋友？
这是谁的问题~？
到底是什么东西阻碍了我们之间的友谊
我发觉我面对你越多，就觉得很厌倦！
你对我说多几句话，我就觉得你好烦。。
也许是我修练得不够，才会对某人产生反感吧
我想我应该对我自己厌倦而不是我的朋友
我要把我心中的恶魔去除掉
这样才不会伤人伤己。。
要不然就把自己封闭起来好了
免得弄伤别人~
我不希望有任何人因为我的改变而受到伤害
我知道，我在无意间不小心用错字眼，
已伤到好几人了
我不会再让我身边的人受伤了

对不起，曾经被我伤害过的人

toooooo FREE

no nid to work tday...
sud i thx god??
hmmm..i duno..
bt..atleast i hv sum free time to do smtg i lk ler...
wakaka~
no work tday...
i tink i m going to fatt mou at home ler...
i din hv such free feeling 4 a long long period ady...
feel soooooo strange abt tiz kind of feelings...
tday rili super free neh...
i luv tiz kind of feeling...
jz on9...n keep on text.ing my frenzzz whole day long~
wow...
sudden feel tat my sms skills nt as gud as laz time ler...
y??
izit bcz i din sms recently or.....?
i duno...
nvm...
i wil improve it later...

"open heart one drop"

Be happy...
()"" ' )
( ,'o' )")
(,,)('')('')
Life is short - don't make it shorter...
i wil try my bez 2 b more happy n happy...
i wil try nt to treat myself too hard...
odou sumtimes it is rili suffer...
i noe i can paz thru d day...
i wil 4get wat happened on yday...
hahaxx~
as wat my frenzz say...
bobo 永远永远都是一只打不死的蟑螂
lolxx~

不小心把水倒掉的那一刻

我竟然在顾客面前把顾客order的饮料倒掉

那时我真的不知如何是好

实在是太fish叻~

还好不是热水

要不然我的手就熟到7788 了

就如7分熟的牛排那样

。。。。。。。。

然后就有个同事帮我把顾客的桌子抹干净

我就躲在洗手间里哭

现在想想，我也不知道为什么当时的我，会哭

当我出来的之前

我以为我拼命的冲洗我的眼睛

才不会让别人知道我刚才在厕所里哭

谁知这个方法根本就行不通嘛~

一出来就被拆穿了

所有的人都知道我刚才在厕所里哭

由于这样

我就跟他们说

刚刚有粒沙进眼睛

所以才会不停的掉泪

任管我如何的说，如何得讲

还是没有人相信我

惨~~~

我一直不敢出去直到那个顾客走为止

也许我不敢面对他们吧~

试问有谁还会回去那个愚过自己的地方呢？

应该是没有吧~

my junior n me~

tiz mei mei vv vv vv lk to take foto...

hmmm...she is my junior ler...

WHY??

bcz...she hv a same similarity wif me...

it is.... SELF-LOVING

wakaka~

i lk tiz mei mei so much...

我的狗狗离家出走~

我好想念你哦

你会在哪里呢？

原本以为你会出去兜兜风后，会回来

可是，至今已经一天一夜了

你还没回来

你知不知道我很担心你

为什么你要离家出走？

是因为我对你不够好，所以你要找户好人家？

是因为你要自由？

还是因为。。。什么？

你可以告诉我啊~

我会尽我能力去理解你的狗狗语言的

你不要不声不声地走，可以吗？

你怎么会舍得让我难过呢？

go skul with 1 reason...

d 1st reason is.....bcz of Toon Kit Yeng...
she ask me to go skul accompany her wor...
n say tat she gt many thg to tel me...
dim ji...
all slp in d class...
wat the...
hmmm....
tday is hari anugerah cemerlang....
bt...i m nt d 1 hu accept those prizes...
lolxx~
i feel so boring while sitting in d hall n c those happy faces after accept their prize..
btw...i wont feel jealous...
after giving prizes...
thr r a show tat i feel vv nice...
it is perform by a form 5 galz name chew bee kim...
she act lk michael jackson on d stage...
bcz of tat...
whole hall bcum extreme high...
wow...
atleast i m nt regret to go to skul ler...
bcz i can watch d "MJ"..
haha~
after tat...
i bec to my class wif my classmates...
den i m sleepy...
so...
i gotta slp...
after a few mins...
i cnt cont. my slp ler...
cz hor...
my class is super noisy...
sum of them chit chat wif high volumn...
sum of them playing HAMBURGER...
wat the...
shout shout n shout...
hw m i going to cont. my slp...
ok...fine...
i wake up n doing ntg...
n sitting thr n start dreaming...

lazy mum n lazy daughter...

lolxx...
my mum lazy to fetch me to skul tday...
n i m lazy go skul oso
so...
i m absent tday ler...
so great~!
i sleep until d time i wanna wake up...
i m sure thr r many ppl wil absent tday...
hehe~
hw i noe??
jz feel it larh...
or mayb can say as 6th sense told me...
lolxx~

AMC 71st Anniversary Concert...

duno y...
i hv no feeling 4 nw...
odou i m gotta up stage tnite...
bt...
i din feel such nervous or panic ady...
m i normal??
hu can tel me??

tday is my skul 71st anniversary concert...
my mum n my bro wil b in d skul..
hehe~
here is d 2 tickets 4 my mum n my bro...
no ticket cnt cum in d skul...
is it true??
i dun tink so...
cz...
i noe thr r sumbody cum in d skul without ticket...
lolxx~
anyway...
it means tat amc's attractiveness tooooooo gud..
oni wil attract so many ppl...
lolxx~
sud b proud of it...

b4 d performance...
i help sum of d prs's members to comb their hair n make up...
hmmm...
here is a foto when i m combing sook wen's hair...

kah kah n me...

hahaxx~

avbody look at me t-shirt when i walk by...

omg...

m i too weird??

hmmm...

mayb...

bt 4 me...

it is ntg...
i luv d hat sooooo much~

bear bear n bobo...

bt hor...

when i m looking d foto 4 a long period...

i feel a bit sket sket...

do u notice tat thr r another hand behind us??

i oso duno hu is d owner of d hand...

sket rite nw...

b4 i performs my body language up d stage...

my frenzz n i r totally HIGH...

my frenzz??

hu r they??

hmmm...let me tel u...

they r...

=kah kah=

=wai yee=

=pooi sze=

=wen-yi=

=jing yah=

=banana=

=babana=

n those handball's members n volleyball's members...

v scream n scream n scream...

shout here n thr...

wowowo...

b4 i performance...

i m ady swting...

during prs performance...

i m so happy tat i din make mistake up d stage..

haha....i m so proud of myself tday...

after performance...

scream agn...

rili extreme high tday...

i luv tday so much...

i cnt describe my happiness thru words~

sry abt tat...

my legs are pain rite nw...

sobxx~

sobxx~

my kerongkong is pain oso...

mayb bcz i shout n scream too much ler...

n it is balasan 4 me...

my sound rili soft nw...

wat a girlish me...?

odou i try to turn my sound volumn higher...

bt...it is stil soft...

so...wat can i do??

***P/S***

i 4get to bring my camera to skul tday...

so regret...

cz...

i cnt take pic as sweet memories...

omg...

hope my memory wont lost...

chicken agn~

Oh My God...
i work here ady 15 days...
work 15 days...
avnite oso chicken as dinner...
so swt...
avnite oso chicken chicken chicken...
dun feel bored?
i m so bored abt tat...

i rili cnt sabar ler...
so...
i order food to eat...
i ordered carbonara jz nw...
it is so delicious than those stupid chicken...
hmmm...
zi xin dun1 to order tday...
so i din force her...
cz...her mouth n stomach is nt belongs to me...
hehe...
i gv sum carbonara to zi xin n ask her try it...
lolxx...
tiz is her look when i feed her d carbonara...
wat a sot sot look..~ rite?

hmmm...
tiz is a smiling face for my supervisor...
lolxx~
it is made by bobo leong...
hw u feel it??
nice or smtg else?
after dinner...
v snap foto in d toilet...
hehe~
seems tat...
thr r glue on zi xin's face...
stick me so tight~
make me lack of air...
hahaxx~

tats all 4 nw...
-bye-bye-

my sunday...

hmmm...

as usual...

ntg special happen in my life tday...

wake up at 11smtg...

feel so tired...

wanna sleep agn..

bt...cant...

wake up n brush my teeth n wash my face in a situation MCC...

after tat...

on9 for 2 hours...

n start prepare to go work agn...

ish...
wanna go work agn...started feel xienzz~

avday...

work work work oso work...

once i tink abt work...

i m starting to get lazy...

once i feel tat i m lazy...

i tink abt my salary...
once i tink abt my salary...

i m full of energy...

lolxx~!~

i duno whether i can tahan n sabar 4 tiz 2 months o nt...

cz...

i m rili no more energy after i cum bec from work...

after i lie on my bed...

i dun feel to wake up anymore...

whoaaa~finally...

zi xin take my place...

lolxx~

i no nid to bcum cashier...

haha...

i can bcum an ordinary waitress...

hehe...

i lk to b a waitress more than a cashier...

cz...

b a cashier...

muz b vv vv vv careful...

if smtg happen...

cashier muz tanggungjawab...

it is so stress 4 me...

make me heart attack...

finally i can fly...

i m ful of freedom nw...

no nid sket tiz n tat ler...

thx god...

god rili bless me...

i feel GOOD!!

i feel nice...
jz lk sugar n spice...
i luv tday soooo much...
bcz...
i no nid to work tday...
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha~
nw oni i realise tat...
b4 i work...i m sooooooo bahagia...
wake up n wait 4 breakfast...
n doing ntg...
nw...
avthg change...
i got to work n get my salary...
no work...no salary...
hmmm...
mayb it is gud 4 me too...
cz...
i can work wif my own hands n get d salary...
atleast...i no nid depends anybody...
i can buy avthg i wan after i get my salary...

my 1st salary appear~$$

yeah!!! yeah!!! yeah!!!

i m hyper HAPPY tday...

noe y??

hmmm~~

cz i take my salary tday...

my 1st salary in my life...

odou it is nt a big amount...

bt...

nvm ler...

i m oso vv vv vv happy ler...

i live my life 4 16 years...

n i din try 2 take salary b4...

n tday i tried it...

d feel rili super good...

cz...

tiz salary including

my energy..

my time..

my sweat..

n so on...

lolxx~

anyway...

i m super happy nw...

lacking in everythg~

i m busying practise tiz few days...
lolxx~
feel tat i m robot nw...
hmmm...
gonna face even more pairs of eyes nex tuesday ler...
sud i happy??
ya...i tink so...
i m jz sleep for 3 hours laz nite...
damn sleepy nw...
bt...i cnt slp...
cz...gotta go work later...
sobx~

since i m working...
i bcum...
less on9...
less sms...
less sleep...
less energy...
less tiz n tat...

i noe i m lacking in everythg....
including on9...sms...sleep...energy n so on...
bcz of tiz...
i m feel so sorry for nt reply ur msg on time...
sorry ya...my frenzzz~
anyway....
i miss u all a lotzz..
odou i cnt sms u all d time...
bt i hope u all wil stil rmb me...

纪念死亡的感觉

上个月的今天

你对我说的话

你还记得吗？

爱上你，后来，又想尽办法忘掉
最后，还是觉得放弃是最好的
虽然感觉上好像有点"自欺欺人"
有一句话，是你永远永远都不会听到的
那些过往，只好锁在心里头，
然后把心中的那把钥匙往远处丢
我喜欢你，太美好
时间会把一切一切都记载下来
又把通通的回忆，慢慢的冲淡
也许未来都是个问号
这 也算是一种天荒地老吧~
那是另一种成长，也是一种逞强
闭上眼睛去感觉淡淡思念的味道就很美
睁开眼睛去体会深深的烙印在心田
回忆在从前，从前只是不完美的恋
过往在哭泣，曾经在对着电话傻笑
感动只是一种情绪的反复
眼泪已在上个月的今天流下
上个月的今天永远都是一个缺
如果只是如果
我会期待
大声说出来我想要得爱
学着抛开，学会释怀
所有的决定，我比任何人都明白
我不会哭，反而我会继续微笑下去
活得更精彩的自我
然后把我对你的爱
寄去一个非常遥远的国度
决定说再见，今天将会是最后一天
过去不再是永远

爱情是因为缺憾才显得美丽吗？

爱情的折磨
=用尽一生的爱=
=换来一身的伤=
=有时即使无气=
=人生却是悲伤=
=痛苦跟紧身旁=
=欢喜却不到来=
=难道注定失败=
=永远没有回头=
=终于开始明白=
=爱一个人好难=

你还是本来的你

而我？

不再是从前的那个我

damn tired!!

damn tired tday
so...
i din heard my mum cal me wake...
i m nt purposely dun1 to go skul d...
i m sure tat thr r quite a number of ppl oso din go to skul...
even go to skul...
they jz wil slp in d clazz~
including me...
i m a bit clever tday...
cz...
i decide to slp on my bed bt nt table in skul...
lolxx~
hmmm~
actually my heart wan to go to skul...
but...
my body dun1 gv coorperation...
so...i hv no energy to go...
lolxx~
i wake at 9smtg tday...
n hv wan tan mee as my breakfast...
gonna slp soon n wake up at 3pm...
cz...
i m going to work at 4pm...
jz gud luck to me...
hope tat i din do any mistake tday...

i rili dun enjoy counting money...
as a cashier...
i feel so stress...
tiz few days...
i owiz dream tat i lost d money in d counter...
ishhh~~~
owiz dream abt d terrible dream at nite...
make me wake up...
keep on swt_ing...
if cont. dream abt tat...
i wil discuss wif d asst manager...
ask him to let others to take my place...
hees~
hope my dream cum true...
i m listening a song named "i never hv a dream cum true" rite nw...

2009年11月1日 晴

日子一天一天的过去
今天是我人生中第8次的工作天
我想今日应该不会比昨天忙吧~
哈哈~
最好是咯
因为每逢星期六，我都会觉得自己有点笨手笨脚
看到每个人都在忙
而我，却帮不了什么
有些东西，虽然有点难度
我觉得我都可以应付得了
可是，那些男生却认为女生做不到
什么都帮我做，事事都迁就我
在我还没有出来做工之前
我已经想得清清楚楚了
做工时必须要忍受苦的
所以你们不需要迁就我
因为这样
我只会觉得自己很没用罢了！