special mum tday

wow...
feel so weird...
my mum sudden cook my favourite fried rice 4 my breakfast...
hmm~~
wat happen to my mum??
i m wondering...
my mum wont cook in d morning normally...
bt tday special...
or...can say as a bit abnormal...
hehe~~
my mum hv changed...
look lk another person tday...
mayb her mood hyper gud ler...
umm...
i hope my mum avday behave lk tday...
i lov her tday~

病魔在身边~

今天下午
突然感到有点不是很舒服
好累
身体也累得无法动弹
感觉上
我的身体已经不再属于我的了
病魔呀~病魔
我的考试快到了
您为什么还找上门呢??
您是特地的？还是故意的呢？
实在不明白您在耍什么花样。
我不喜欢生病啊!!
因为
我讨厌药药的味道
小小粒，虽然看起来不什么起眼
吃起来，蛮恐怖下嘞~


何况
今天不如往日了
以前生病
还会得到某人的关心
现在生病
只有自己一人孤单单，默默的“享受”病魔所给于的“礼物”

Skul Reopen!

Oh No...
i absent for d 1st day...
haha~
so...
i waste all my time on9ing...
i muz change tiz bad attitude....
hmmm....
i tink i gonna prepare for my final exam ler...
i dun1 to regret anythg in my life...
BoBo...Gambateh...

gonna bec ipoh...

wake up at 9smtg...
hv a nice breakfast in d hotel b4 check out...

den...
ntg to do...
so...
self-loving agn...

lets PK...
c hu is d winner...
wakaka~~

eat chicken rice b4 v go shopping...
at 1st...
i wanna buy smtg "ROOM RULES" in The Mall...
so v go The Mall...
quite exicting...
cz i din been The Mall b4...
so...i keep on hoping tiz n tat...
finally...
i reached The Mall..
Wattttttt Theeee HELLLLL...
it let me so KECEWA...
OMG~~
rili zha dou...
haiz...
after tat...
seems ntg to shop...
so...v go 1 utama...
yea...
i lk 1 utama...
but...
thg din hv 1oo% perfect d...
after a few mins...
my mum say...
thr r smtg happen in ipoh...
so...gonna bec ipoh asap...
yerrrrrrr....
so sad la...
i din buy thg arr...
feel so uncomfortable...
hate la...
i promise myself...
i MUST cum KL agn after my final exam...

一对新人的大日子~

urmmm...

wake up early early in d morning tday...

feel so sleepy...

mayb bcz i slept at 2am laz nite...

n wake up at 6am...

1 gal is taking foto..

look smart??

love tiz pic so much...
haha~
d longer time is c tiz pic...
d more i feel tat i m her...

me n hebe agn...


d most 经典...
d baby is d 1 hu open d bridal car...
i hv never c it b4 tiz...
d baby is so cute...

ok...
bridegroom is going to bring d bride home...
d white clothes bhind d bridegroom look lk "dai gor dai"
hees~

拜拜的时间~

my mum is giving ang pao to them~"表哥和表婶"

来个合家欢吧~

hving lunch after taking foto...

i luv d smell of tiz flower so much...

muackzz~

wedding dinner...

tiz is my look~

taking foto wif 表哥 n 表婶

me n ladies~

ladies...

lets ROCKZZ!!

yeah....

i look tall n thin here...

cutting cakes...

wat a fake thg...

zha dou..==!!

d thg i enjoy d most is a bowl of 鱼翅...

rili nice~

yumm~~~~~~~~~~~~sherng!!

finally...

complete avthg...

jz bec hotel...

going to bath n sleep soon...

tiz is d laz foto i took 4 tday...

nitez....guys~

going kl nw..

start my journey...

sleep in d car on d highway...
den...
my bro curi curi take my foto without my agreement...
argh...
bt nvm la..
quite nice oso..

jz wake up...
cz...almost reach kl...

hehe...
i lk tiz doggie...
lets take a foto wif "hebe"
me n hebe~
cute??

v 2 look vv blur...
hmm~
i tink so...
our blur look sure attract many ppl d...
wakaka~

drinking carlsberg...
during my cousin's wedding eve...

Library~

going to library wif toon toon..crystal n joeger..
crystal n joeger (CJ)
make me tink of d "CJ7"
hmm...
i reach library earlier than toon toon...
den...i bcum d most bright light bulb...
OMG...i hate to bcum light bulb larh...
no wonder wat i m...
i m stil gonna faced d prob...
so...
i jz sit thr...holding a book n dreaming...while waiting toon..
yerrr...feel so bad...
huhuhu~~
summore...
library's air-conds ROSAK...
whole library bcum OVEN...
i hv no air...
almost 缺氧..
hot lk hell...

jz bec from jo ann's hse

jz bec from jo ann's hse...
feel so tired..
haha~~
zi xin n ching li owiz make me feel zha dou...
hehe~
but i enjoy oso la...
hope jo ann hv a unforgetable b'day ler...
hmm~~
i wil rmb wat SWA YUAN LIN do to me tday...
release my aeroplane...?
u bad...i sad...
ok...
so tired tday...
sleep soon...
gud nite!

让shopping麻醉自我

jz came bec from parade...
buy jor many thg...
sum...for wedding dinner tiz saturday...
sum...casual use...
sum...bling bling thg...
sum...sum...sum...n many...
a bit worry abt my mum's pocket...
hmm~~
after shopping...
i feel a bit ok...
atleast wont tink much much thg...
i wil do many many thg to make myself busy recently...
i bought wine jz nw...
i wil drink it tnite...
so tat i can mabuk b4 i sleep...
n wont tink tat much..

later...abt 8.30...
gonna go jusco wif wei see n her sis n her sis's bf...
hohoho~~
hope wont bcum light bulb ler...
v r going to cinema to watch "吓到笑"
a s'pore movie...
hope i wil enjoy it...
ok...tats 4 nw...
gotta prepare smtg b4 go...
buai buai~

hate today~

i hv lost everything...
Strengh is ntg more than hw well i hide my pain...
watever on earth possessed you..
to make this bold decision..
i guess u dun need me..
while whispering those words..
i cried lk a baby..
hoping u would care..
but...
u no need to preach..
u dun hv to care me..
all d time..
bcz my heart is stil broken..
my soul is frozen..
stil watching the rain to fall..
forever standing in d cold all alone..
i'll stay here to d end..
another day to start..
another day to break my heart..
wif luv..no romance..
d fragile pieces of my soul..
belongs to............
i hate to feel it anymore..
i wish i couldn't feel it at all..
d msg tat i wanna send to my fren...
bt...ng xiu xam sent to u...
OMG..so malu..=.=
i m stil rmb smtg tat u said to me laz time...
u say...
no wonder wat happen...
u wil k me..n oso balas dendam if thr r sumbody bully me...
i rili terharu when u say tat to me...
tday...
thr r sumbody tat i duno sms me n kacao me agn...
but...u dun noe...
i oso duno hw can i let u noe...
if i let u noe...
i sket u wil tink smtg else or mayb misund...
so i dun dare to tel u abt it...
hope u wil feel it...
bt i noe...it is impossible 4 u to feel it..
i hv a bit bit of moody tday...
bt...thr r no 1 4 me to chat wif...
i duno wat to do...
i hv lost direction...

u~u~u~u~u~n you

y those ppl lk to show off their bf/gf??
show off...nevermind larh..
but...y muz show off in front of me...?
gv me d reasons...can?
jz noe to say abt ur bf/gf whole day long...
dun u all feel sienxx?
if u all dun feel boring...
i m oso feel bored la...
bside tiz topics...
no others topics tat u~u~u~u~n you can chat wif me??
ish~
act u all wanna me to jealous abt u all or wat??
excuse me...
say d truth...i din even feel a bit bit of jealous to u all lo...

wake up~wake up~

i fal asleep at 12 midnite yday...
n i cnt sleep well...
oni 1 nite...
jao gt so many nurses walk in walk out...
when d nurse open d door...
i wake up...
when d nurse go out...
i wake up...
when d dog barking outside...
i wake up...
when my auntie go toilet...
i wake up...
when my auntie make milk 4 my grandma...
i wake up...
when sudden my auntie "release air"
i wake up...
omg...
whole nite...
owiz wake up...
ish~
nw...bcum panda ady...

ngam ngam finished attend a talk...
b4 i bec to hosp...
i go n buy a swiss roll to eat...
cz i m rili vv hungry...
i din hv my dinner b4 d talk...
so...
my stomach bcum drum...
sound is coming out...
when my mum n i reach hosp...
v realise tat my uncle n bro stil inside d hosp...
bt d hosp ady locked...
so...
they ask a nurse to open d door n let them out n let me go in...
hehe...
tats all 4 nw...
i gonna sleep...
so tired tday~

hosp...i m coming~

i wil b staying in d hosp tnite...
odou i m nt rili lk d situation of hosp...
but wat to do??
i wanna accompany my grandma ma...
nvm ler...
jz sabar den avthg ok...
my grandma cnt walk well after d operation...
so...
muz use d 4 leg tongkat...
sumtimes...
i hold her hands n follow her slow steps bside her...
d thg tat she need d most is support from her family n frenz...
so...i wil support her d...
hehe~

day=shopping...nite=ear suffering

day time
duno wats wrong wif my mind tday...
crystal ask me to go parade wif her..yuan yeng..n shi wei...
n me...
jao reject crystal..
n decide to go parade wif 2 xiao za bo(banana n kai li)...
haha~
nvm...i din regret 4 my decision...
i m oso hv fun wif them...
mayb they r vv funny n sot sot dei lk tat...
summore...
when i m wif them...
i feel tat they r exactly lk children...
no wonder they r happy..unhappy..angry..or anythg...
they wil show it out...
n din even keep inside their heart...
they r so cute...
i lk them to b my frenz~


nite time
haiz...bec home after visiting my grandma in d hosp...
1 hour smtg later...
my house "meriah" agn...
d "meriah" tat i mean is NO SILENCE...
my bad bro quarrel wif my mum n uncle agn...
yorrr...
my ears suffer agn...
oso my bro's false la...
nt bcz of him...
jao wont hv so "meriah" ady...
mayb nt his false oso...
cz he is d youngest in d family...
so...many ppl manja him including me...
n make him tink tat he is d king in d family...
haiz~
gt a bro lk him...
rili gek sei..

my grandma...add oil!!

my grandma hving hip operation tiz morning...
i cnt accompany her cz i hv to go to skul...
i sket smtg happen on my grandma...
i love my grandma so much...
she take k me 4 so many years...
so...
i rili dam xam her...
in d skul...
i oso cnt focus my studies...
ist second after skul...
i go to d hosp tat bside my skul immediately...
i walk as fas as i can...
finally...
i noe my grandma ady paz thru tiz cabaran in her life...
i rili happy when i heard tiz news from my auntie...
hehe~~
my heart sudden din feel so heavy ady...
hohoho~
i tink i wanna hargai n love her more ady...
grandma...
muackzzz~

k-box_ing wif jo ann

i went to k box wif jo ann jz nw...
i feel so happy...
mayb bcz i din to k box for a long long time...
hahaxx~
oso muz thx jo ann ler...
if she din ask me go...
i tink i oso wont go lo...
summore...
i realise tat jo ann's voice rili cute lo...
exactly a children sound...
i quite like her voice...
n oso my voice oso...
odou i admired her voice vv much...
bt...i oso like my voice d...
bcz...
my voice cnt simply imitate by anybody...
hahaxx..
tiz is y i love my voice..

suckz monday~

uhmmm~~
duno y...
avmonday oso nt a gud day 4 me...
owiz scolded by PJ teacher n so on...
tday abit special...
me n all my classmates scolded by 2 teachers...
abt PJ teacher...
i hv ntg to say...
mayb i m ady biasa ler...
BI teacher...
my BI teacher wigging us tday...
wats wrong wif her?? huh?
when she is wigging...
i m fishing in d class...
finally...
i fal asleep on d table automatically...
omg...
when she is wigging...
i m sleeping...
act...wat she said i oso duno...
cnt recall too...
can u imagine hw sweet is my dream??
hahaxx~
i jz noe tat...
i m wake up after d ring...
tats all...

老天爷生气了吗？？

老天爷生气了吗？？
为什么一整天都天黑黑的。。
天虽然是黑黑的。。
可是
我的心情是开心的。。
我的生活一样是充满色彩的。。
哈哈哈~

i stay in my grandma's hse tday

i stay in my grandma's hse tnite...
my auntie was bec from kl laz nite...
i miss her so much...
hmm~
i tink thr r another reason 4 me to stay in my grandma's hse...
d reason is...
i wan to let my ears rest 4 a while...
my ears din rest when i m stay in my own home...
my mum n uncle owiz wan me to study...
n i owiz no mood to study...
so i prefer to stay in my grandma' 1 day...
i noe...
i can escape 4 a day..but nt whole life...
i rili hope tat time can pass faster...
after spm...
i ask my mum sent me to kl to study make up...
or taiwan to study abt music...
so tat i can leave home...
i feel so suffer to stay at home nw...
my ears pain avday...
when i leave home...
i m sure avbody wil feel happy...
i m happy bcz my mum n uncle din ngi ngi ngo ngo bside me...
they 2 happy bcz can save energy n no nid waste their time to say me...
u c...
so many happiness can i bring to them after i leave d home...

没事做~不如和你们分享健康资讯吧!

go skul..go parade..go tt..go home

jz bec from home...
so tired tday...
go skul..go parade..go tt..go home..
going parede wif toon toon b4 tt..
hehe...tats my life...
i wanna b a happy gal nw...
i wil laugh as loud as i can...
i wont care wat others ppl tink abt me...
i m hu i m...
i do wat i lk to do...
i tink wat i lk to tink...
i play wat i lk to play...
i wont let myself sad anymore...

i dun1 facing everyone wif a fake smile anymore...

ntg else 4 tday...
+speechless+

090909 start my new life...

tday is 090909...
wat d special n meaningful day for me...
i love tday so much...
so...
i sms u at 9.45pm jz nw...
n i m so happy to received ur replied...
hehe...
i ady promise myself nt to love u ler...
mayb...
it is d oni solution for me...
d oni way for me to happy...
so...
starting from nw n onwards...
i wil love myself...

i wont tink so much abt u anymore...
i wil try nt to care ur late replied msg...
nw...i hope tat v r bez frenz ever...
ntg can change our frenship easily...
i wont love u anymore...
i wil jz like u lk a fren...
n ntg else...
mayb someday u wil cry for me like i cried for u...
mayb someday u wil miss me like i missed u...
mayb someday u wil need me like i needed u...
mayb someday u wil wait my msg like i waited ur msg...
mayb someday u wil love me like i loved u...
but i wont love u anymore...
i wont do d same wrong thing agn...

especially d things which make me unhappy~
ok...
wat v r??
d oni ans for tiz ques is...
v r oni best fren ever...
hope tat...
u r happy forever...
n of cz me too...

最后赌注

又是一天

白天，黑夜，白天，黑夜，

一分一秒

我傻傻的又过了另一个24小时

我一直不停的等，等，等

每一天，每一时，每一分，每一秒，

都不停的等，

我会继续等到明天的9.09pm

明天是个很特别的日子+090909+

所以，我会趁着这个特别的日子，

寄一封短讯给你，

回不回复我，

随你吧~

我學著不去擔心得太遠，

不計劃太多,反而能勇敢冒險，

我要快乐，

我不想再等下去了，

明天将会是我对自己所做的最后赌注，

你要把我当成：

最陌生的好朋友

还是

最熟悉的陌生人

也就随你吧..

我真的好累~

hang out wif frenz~~

my look for tday...

my smile look fake??

i hope i cnt 4get abt my sadness...
4get "somebody" as well...
so...decided to hang out wif frenz tday...
to having fun...
say d truth la...
quite bored lo...
duno is my prob or wat...
i cnt rili hv fun tday...
haiz~~
avwhr i walk...
i owiz look at my fon...
hope tat "somebody" leave msg for me...
no wonder wat msg i received from "somebody"...
i oso feel happy...
but "somebody"...
din do anything...
i m so sad...
i m sad nt bcz "somebody" cold to me..
is bcz "somebody" din even care me nw...
i look so happy in front of my fren av single minutes...
but...m i rili happy??
sum of my fren tel me...
nt to keep my real feelings...
bt..if i show it to u all...
u all oso cnt help me anything...
y wanna show it??
if i show my sadness to u all...
u all wil unhappy too...
i duno all d ppl around me feel sad...
u noe??
so i wont sad in front of u...
i jz hope tat i can owiz make u all happy...
sad?? let myself faced it..

d day without u...

yday afternoon...
u ask me dun treat u so gud...
n dun care of u...
u say u r nt a good person...
nt berbaloi to treat u gud...
n u say u dun1 hurt me...
y u say tat...?
excuse me...
u r my fren...
y cnt i care n treat u gud?
yday nite...
u treat me cold lik hell..
i duno y u wan to do so...
u tot u do tat...
i wil left u alone??
I WONT...
wont forever n ever...
i dun care how much u hurt me...
y u so sket to hurt me..?
i m nt afraid to get hurt...
y u risau so much??
today
u din msg me at all tday...
i duno y u wanna treat me lk tiz...
d laz msg i received from u is 10.31pm yday nite...
nw ady 11.03pm...
hw many hours??
when i sleep...
i dream tat u sms me...
n i wake up quickly n c my fon...
d result i get...no msg at all...
i dun1 to msg u automatic...
i sket.....
i cnt accept tat u dun reply me n i keep on waiting...
feeling of waiting rili nt feel gud at all...
so...i duno wat to do rite nw...
anybody...help me!!

u dun1 mui mui anymore??

i really prefer to stop sms u,
instead of making sum1 unhappy,
i keep quiet...
my silence is jz another word for my pain...
i feel unhappy,
i feel so sad,
cz i feel tat i lost the bez fren tat i never had...
If i could giv u 1 thing in life,
i would giv u d ability to c urself thru my eyes,
only den would u realise how special u r to me..
i duno y u treat my so cold recently,
d saddest part isn't tat wif each passing day i feel like i need u more,
but it is the fact tat u dont need me at all...
Low Siew Wai...
u dun1 mui mui anymore??

心痛

你没有回复我的讯息，
从下午到现在，
每当我电话响起来，
我是多么希望是你。
可是，却让我一次又一次地失望，
我发现我电话里有16封未读讯息，
但是没有一封是来自你的，
电话从一分钟四封短讯到音讯全无，
我不知道究竟发生了什么事情，
我只知道我很担心你！
我竟梦幻般的如痴如醉，
忍不住喃喃轻语：你还好吗？？
好不容易撑到晚上，
终于忍不住，
我便自动发讯息给你，
换来的是。。。
我的心里好像被针刺那样，
伤感顿时如潮水般漫在心头。
睁开眼，我的泪滴，
哭着说我没问题，
我是不会让你知道我在流泪的，
我不要你责怪你自己，
当我看到你责怪自己时，
我的心，真得很痛。。
即使舍不得也不会让你知道我难过，
我宁愿默默忍受单思的煎熬和痛楚，
任由孤独和寂寞把自己的小小的心灵弄得百孔千疮。。

第三者逃脱不了凋谢的命运

在課室裡的暖氣剛剛好，
可是我覺得好冷兼肚子痛，
我知道自己就快病了，
身子不自禁地輕輕發抖著，
卻也只能隱忍著，
我痛苦地在心里巴望著時間快點過去，
好讓我回家休息。
在無奈的隱痛中，
感覺有一道溫和的光芒从電話傳出來，
原來是你（曉慧），發短訊給我的那個人，
心裡像有東西輕輕劃過，
蕩起一陣無以言喻的奇妙之感，
你還叮嚀我*如果有事，記得一定要告訴我*，
於是我就對你說，我的肚子好痛，
你就拼命地和我聊天，讓我忘記肚子痛。
然而，我的肚痛真的沒有那麼痛了。
你的方法還蠻有效的。
要是沒有了你（曉慧），或許我的生命將從此停留在寒冷的季節裡。
我也知道自己已經驚奪了原本屬於另一個女孩的愛，
心裡有無數的抱歉和內疚。 。 。
愛又如何？自己所謂的愛或許正像花瓶裡的插花，
早已註定逃不脫某種宿命，
室內的花已用它的香消玉塤的命運為我提供了一個提示，
沒有根的生命即使美麗也是短暫的，
不可能會有美好的結果，
若非要與現實抗衡試圖得出個結果來，
也只能是一個苦澀的果。 。 。

LSW...

LSW...
i tink i hv a bit bit of feel to u ady...
wat sud i do nw??
i got 暗示u b4...
but...no use..
u din feel it...
u owiz cal me mui mui...
but i dun1 b ur mui mui...
i wan to share ur happiness..sadness n avthing...
u noe??
sudden...
u sms n ask me "wats wrong wif u, y looks moody?"
i say cz i love sumbody but wont hv conclusion...
i tel u tiz...
n d ppl tat i mention is u...
u ask me to tel d ppl...
huh...tat means u ask me to tel u?...
omg...i cnt do it...
cz u ady hv gf ler...summore ur gf same skul wif me...
i dun1 to do tat...
bcz it wil hurt 3 ppl in d same time...
so...i dun1 to tel u...
i prefer to suffer myself...
1 ppl in suffer better than 3 ppl...
ur gf is 无辜 d...
n ur gf is hving pmr tiz year...
i dun1 she bcz of me n u...
n cnt concentrate in study...
i ask u a ques b4...
ques: if sumbody sudden say i love u to u...
n u ady hv gf ady... wat wil u do...?
ur ans: i tink i wil refuse lo...cz i ady hv gf ma..
if i m ur gf...sure feel gud la...
but i m NOT...
u noe?? after i receive ur ans...my tears drop...
ok...i oso noe d ans in ur heart ady...
so...i wont tel u tat i love u...
cz i sket d ans u gv me...
mayb...ur gf is d most suitable 4 u ler...
mayb...me n u jz can b bez bez bez bez bez bez fren oni...
anyway...i wil try my bez nt to love u anymore...

Xtreme talkactive...

my class extreme talkactive tday...
mayb bcz av1 of us din c each others for a long time...
so...many topics to talk ady...
including me...
i chat n chat n chat...
chat non stop...
i cnt control my mouth nt to talk...
tats y...
hope v din disturd those hu taking their exam la...

SPM n STPM hving their trial tday...
hope they add oil ler...
i wil sokong av1 of them...
Gambateh..my frenzzz~